This marks friday in Jp land. It's crazy shit! No really, um, I've begun. Yes, begun school that is. See, I haven't made it through a full day ALL WEEK. Except friday ;)

I caught flack from my bus driver because she saw me walking to Alex's on tuesday. She's like, "I should've called the resource officer, blah blah blah." It was funny, she's a good bus driver. Funny in general. But ya, it was silly because of it. I'm about to play this 3d billiards game with Grimmeh from Opera. But Annie thought I was cheating on her. See, there's this thing. Her name isn't really Annie, that's her middle name. So when I say her name, over time I forgot her first name was Elizabeth. So what do I do? Of corse, I bring the shit up. Ya know, you try to be innocent and make a joke. Lately for no reason, I've been calling her Annie Beaney, her full name, and then she was like, "Cut it out" so I smirked, and out came the series of words I will never ever live down. I called her Rebecca. I don't know what other realm serious of posession and wrong doings made those words leak from my mouth like the last drop of venom from a scorpion sting but it happened. Then guess what! I called her it again, and while she looked at me in utter disbelief, I called her Rachel! Rachel however was just a spinoff of Rebecca, because I fucked up that bad I groped for any name I could find next that becan with an R. After that my mind kicked in, Elizabeth of corse. Rebecca is a nickname for Elizabeth. Like Tony for Anthony. Or Nick for Nicolos. Of corse this royally fucked me. The innocent attempt at seeing her mad and bringing an even wider smile to my face ended up in her asking me if I was cheating on her. God that was terrible. I felt shitty unlike anything before. Leave it to me to fuck up THAT badly. I mean, granted, I've done some dumb things before. Like, losing her bracelet. That made me feel shitty, and then well, I never think I'm doing everything I could, that's even worse, but man, this is shitty unlike anything before. Argh, I just wish I could convey the feeling when "Are you cheating on me?" is asked. Then she's serious. I couldn't get any worse in a posistion. Really, if I had tried, honestly tried to fuck up any worse, I couldn't of. The thing is I didn't even fuck up, I can't even look at other women with Annie and I got this. The last thing I ever expected was this, christ. It'll be okay though. I know it will. I would kill myself if anything happened and I know that it'll be okay because I need to live a little longer. Alrighty then, that's about it. Alex is coming tonight, for DnD tomarrow.


Oh, and happy birthday to my brother, he turned 11, his buddies are over fanking around.